My blog, Ill write what I want...this time, a song was written about me

Have you heard this song by jose gonzalez? Heartbeat... I swear, he peaked in on my life and wrote this song...

One night to be confused
One night to speed up truth
We had a promise made
Four hands and then away
Both under influence
We had divine sense
To know what to say
Mind is a razor blade

To call for hands of above
To lean on
Wouldn't be good enough
For me, no

One night of magic rush
The start, a simple touch
One night to push and scream
And then relief
Ten days of perfect tunes
The colors red and blue
We had a promise made
We were in love

To call for hands of above
To lean on
Wouldn't be good enough
For me, no

To call for hands of above
To lean on
Wouldn't be good enough

And you
You knew the hand of the devil
And you
Kept us awake with wolves' teeth
Sharing different heartbeats
In one night

To call for hands of above
To lean on
Wouldn't be good enough
For me, no

To call for hands of above
To lean on
Wouldn't be good enough


Ive been confused about god, im bi-polar and I hear voices... sometimes i didn't even know if I could lean on god, was he even real, did I really even hear him speak to me? Then a bomb dropped in on me and tonys relationship, Some how, I knew just what to say that awful night. I went to bed and woke up in a full blown panick attack, I begged tony to take me to the hospital, I was sure I was dying... I pushed and screamed like i never had before...then I had some relief...tony took out a piece of paper and wrote: We made it, We caught enough fish (this goes along with a story we are both passionate about), we did it...lets celebrate... Im taking my family on vacation RIGHT NOW....signed tony at 6:10am...

we went to sandiego, he proposed to me, we WERE IN LOVE...still, my position on a higher power is shakey, but something happened that night, someone helped us that night our words to eachother cut into our souls.

This song defines the most significant event that has ever happened to me... its amazing.